Recently i have experienced an extreme urge and inspiration at work and as good as it is to feel so motivated i had to stop and wonder where it all came from. I mean, it was a sudden concentration fully focussed on logically thinking about my career and considering the next steps on my path to success, all in the hope of attaining that much desired 'pot of gold' at the end of my rainbow.
It was during this time that i had a profound realisation, i am driven by two things: passion and more recently as i discovered, i am driven by fear. Fear of failure is how i get things done urgently. It is the fear of the consequences, not the achievement itself, that pushes me to do tasks fast and do them well.
For example, my passion is to write and edit so i am in the perfect job, which is why i love what i do. On the other end of this spectrum is the fear of what would happen if i lost my job. Logistically i would not get money, which ultimately cuts off my lifestyle and the ability to take care of myself (something which i always found important). I hate to rely on people and ask for favours, which is odd because it gives me great pleasure to help others when i can. It's a hypocritical way of thinking, i'm aware, but that is how i think of things.
It sounds strange to become instantly motivated by fear, but sometimes the things that inpsire us don't come from the best of places. They are born from the fear of what may happen if we don't achieve what we set out to do. I suppose it makes me understand those who have the 'failure is not an option' mentality. Those individuals are successful because they have to be, the alternative of giving up really isn't a realistic option.
In that respect, i can totally relate. I have to succeed because to lose my job or lose the ability to live the lifestyle i always dreamed about would be the biggest failure of all. So perhaps that is what keeps me so pumped and ready to shoot for the stars. At this point in my life there are no limits and i have set some big goals. Now it's just about my patience and above all my perseverance to see them through to fruition.
It was during this time that i had a profound realisation, i am driven by two things: passion and more recently as i discovered, i am driven by fear. Fear of failure is how i get things done urgently. It is the fear of the consequences, not the achievement itself, that pushes me to do tasks fast and do them well.
For example, my passion is to write and edit so i am in the perfect job, which is why i love what i do. On the other end of this spectrum is the fear of what would happen if i lost my job. Logistically i would not get money, which ultimately cuts off my lifestyle and the ability to take care of myself (something which i always found important). I hate to rely on people and ask for favours, which is odd because it gives me great pleasure to help others when i can. It's a hypocritical way of thinking, i'm aware, but that is how i think of things.
It sounds strange to become instantly motivated by fear, but sometimes the things that inpsire us don't come from the best of places. They are born from the fear of what may happen if we don't achieve what we set out to do. I suppose it makes me understand those who have the 'failure is not an option' mentality. Those individuals are successful because they have to be, the alternative of giving up really isn't a realistic option.
In that respect, i can totally relate. I have to succeed because to lose my job or lose the ability to live the lifestyle i always dreamed about would be the biggest failure of all. So perhaps that is what keeps me so pumped and ready to shoot for the stars. At this point in my life there are no limits and i have set some big goals. Now it's just about my patience and above all my perseverance to see them through to fruition.
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